Khilanani says it was only released internally after facing calls from some to release it. White people make my blood boil,вЂ™ she said.ДЄfter Khilanani delivered the talk, Yale only made it available to students and faculty with a warning that said it contained вЂprofanity and imagery for violenceвЂ™. The cost of your own life, as they suck you dry. вЂThis is the cost of talking to white people at all. We need to get to know the mask,вЂ™ she said. White people think itвЂ™s their actual face. They donвЂ™t even know they have a mask on. вЂAddressing racism assumes that white people can see and process what we are talking about.

Khilanani also said speaking to white people about race was вЂuselessвЂ™ because she says they are not at same level of conversation. ItвЂ™s like banging your head against a brick wall. вЂWe are asking a demented, violent predator who thinks that they are a saint or a superhero, to accept responsibility. We keep forgetting that directly talking about race is a waste of our breath,вЂ™ she said. вЂThey feel that we should be thanking them for all that they have done for us. She went on to say that white people feel they are being bullied when people of color bring up race andВ described it as a вЂpsychological predicamentвЂ™. Like I did the world a f**king favor,вЂ™В Khilanani said during the talk. вЂI had fantasies of unloading a revolver into the head of any white person that got in my way, burying their body and wiping my bloody hands as I walked away relatively guiltless with a bounce in my step. Dr Aruna Khilanani, who is a psychiatrist and psychoanalyst, delivered the talk virtually to Yale University medical students and faculty back in April

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